Forget my  post on "Failure", after the pain I have experienced since Sunday, I realize that some things just don't matter.  Pain has a way of doing just that.  It takes your focus.  Holds your attention.

Since Sunday, my back pain has been so severe that I have not been able to do anything comfortably except walk.  Do you realize how many hours are in a day when all you can do is move from stretching your back to walking/pacing?  If you try to lay down, you can't stay there.  So all Sunday night I paced...  this has been one of the hardest, most frustrating things I have gone through and this is really only day 3.

Last night, I was able to sleep for 6 hours straight.  I woke up this morning so grateful for the sleep.  Not only that but I realized that I felt pretty good.  Good enough to attempt sitting in a chair (if you have back pain, you know what I am talking about).  Then I read 1 Peter 4:1-7.... (don't laugh, I did not go searching for this and in the NLT it really spoke to me!)

Living for God

 1 So then, since Christ suffered physical pain, you must arm yourselves with the same attitude he had, and be ready to suffer, too. For if you have suffered physically for Christ, you have finished with sin.^[a] 2 You won't spend the rest of your lives chasing your own desires, but you will be anxious to do the will of God. 3

Christ suffered for the "joy set before him".  He had the goal in mind.  I am not sure that I could choose to go through physical pain for someone else.  Physical pain scares me.  I am a wimp!  But once it happened to me, all I can do is pray for others, hoping that they don't have to go through it or that they will get relief from their pain.  

I am not sure how all this applies but one thing I know is how grateful I am for my job.  I want to get back to it and still be able to do it.  Forget all that petty stuff.  Maybe that is what it means to be done with sin and chasing your own desires.

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